mostly the

fleeting thoughts, the passing
urges, passing itches of want are fueled
by a more sincere objective than you'd think.

in actuality, I want just
to keep you around.
to be friends for the foreseeable future.
to have you in my life.  

but I am very afraid you'll stop wanting me around if the relationship doesn't advance.

but you mean more
than that.

you mean more
than sex and
labels and
all of the
nonsense
ever will.