yes or no and

I'm always looking, searching,
bending over and lurching forward.
I'm always moving while I sit, sitting
while I am standing and confused when
I know what it is you're saying.
 I haven't the time for games, the freedom for
fighting or the focus for everything else.
I take the time when I have none, I give
up all I asked for for something else and I
wish I could tell you what I mean.