Monday, February 27, 2012

but not but really but

I'm not so good at telling you how I do feel it.
But I am so so good at feeling it.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I think perhaps I've always needed something to define me,
and my problem at the moment is that I feel nothing and no one I'm involved which is worth my entire existence compacted into it.

Perhaps I was supposed to have reached this conclusion eons ago.
Perhaps I'm progressing slow-like.

Okay then.
Living like I'm living like I'm living in rehab.

Relapse, relapse, relapse. 

Monday, February 20, 2012

Please show me how to convey my ideas.
I have so many many many. 

Sunday, February 19, 2012

At first it was bare and ripe for the picking -
my chest was pulsating under your weight you
stripped my heart like an exotic dancer would: 
all eyes and no hands. 

After the initial grasp, the puff puff pass and the
smiles exchanged between our legsarmslimbs and the
time it took to be rid of the excess skin crowding us in, 
we breathed in sweet, sweet fumes of spring and said
things kept in our mouths, light like ecstasy but 
heavier than the average promise. 

But the hours it took to argue the hunger away made our
heads ache and eventually our jaws could clench no longer, 
our eyes could see no more of each other - just smoke and
rubbish clouding our way - it was lost,
whatever it was, it

was lost. 

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Take it, please.

I can write love poetry when I'm not in love with you.

(The secret is to be in love with everyone else.)
a nefarious dead-pan glance and
all I can think about is how I have
your favorite book tucked away, safe, 
because I want an excuse for my 
trembling hands and the constant
chugging of my mind at times, the ever-
present headache that originates in 
my stomach. I am hosting a 
cavernous black hole there 
that spreads it's lips 
wider and 

w   i     d             e             r

every day that washes over, 
leaving me a little paler a little thinner a 
little hungrier than 

I am s

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

This is how I say 'I love you'

I'll realize that I'm not the only person on earth - little by little.